Monday, September 20, 2010

RT: @brittmerrick Urgent: Daisy seems to be having another negative neurological response to chemo. Affects coherency and motor skills. Scary. Pls pray now

Monday, September 6, 2010

Read all about it!

Go read my dear friend Allison Escalante's Blog. I am so proud of her, for taking time out of her normally SO busy day to blog! I thoroughly enjoy reading them, and for a while she wasn't blogging enough for me. So she stepped it up! Sometimes she blogs twice in one day! Careful though, sometime's she forget's apostrophe's, but I love her regardless!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

I've been living in the shadows of your song

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Alone time is always welcome...

Monday, August 9, 2010

Go to and VOTE for The Victorious Secrets!! Today is the last day to vote,so GO GO GO!

Monday, August 2, 2010

It's this kind of day. . .


Will someone please call a surgeon? Who can crack my ribs,and repair this broken heart,that you're deserting for better company? I can't accept that it's over,I will block the door, like a goalie tending the net,in the third quarter of a tied-game of rivalry. So just say how to make it right,and I swear I'll do my best to comply. Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride,and slowly growing old together? I feel I must interject here,you're getting carried away,feeling sorry for youself. With these revisions and gaps in history. So let me help you remember, I've made charts and graphs, that should finally make it clear. I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave. So please back away and let me go. I can't, my darling, I love you so. Tell me am I right to think, that there could be nothing better, than making you my bride, and slowly growing old together. Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future, your heart won't heal right,if you keep tearing out the sutures. I admit that I have made mistakes, And I swear I'll never wrong you again. You've got a lure I can't deny,but you've had your chance, so say goodbye. Say goodbye.

Postal Service-Nothing Better

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Every breath I take...

It was one of those days, that started out awful. I got sun poisoning from laying out for too long on Sunday, and spent all Monday night/Tuesday Morning "getting sick". It's one of the worst feelings ever. Not to mention, your body is SO exhausted, that you fall asleep, but then wake up every hour...(as I did...3/4/5/6/7...) Then finally, I slept until 10, but then had to work the rest of the day. Came home, had a run in with a grumpy brother, and then got to (I say got to,because regardless of the circumstances, I'm blessed by my friends) be a shoulder for one of my friends.I found myself praying, more than once today that the Lord, would come quickly! "These days are getting far too long, and too tiring for my liking! I know I asked that You not come back until I was married/kids/etc. But at this point I just want to be with You!" It turned into not so bad, as my friends make me smile, and I am reminded of the blessing that life is. How even just to breathe....Is a blessing....

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Yeah, I said man fast.

(Pictures just make things more interesting...they're irrelevant.)

I have been punched in the heart (figuratively speaking) quite a few times in my life, due to my lacking the ability to guard my heart. Due to me being SUPER naive, and SUPER prone to emotionally attaching myself to everything. So, I decided in April, to have a fast from the opposite sex. For a couple of reasons:
(1) To be able to spend time alone with my Jesus, and draw close to Him, so that He would once again draw close to me, and I would re-focus on Him being my number 1, and Him being THEE only important thing to me.
(2)That I would grow up and end that mind set.
So, the date was set, that my "Man fast" would end at the end of August, and I would be free to let my guard down. WELL GUESS WHAT?!!? I changed my mind! Why SHOULD my man fast end? Why SHOULD I open myself back up for being in pain again? I'm not going to. My man fast is extended until further notice. I am having an AMAZING time being in my Jesus' presence constantly. Reading about all things theological, praying for anything and everything, and just focusing on keeping Him where He belongs. First in my life, thoughts,days,conversation,and the only One who has any access to THIS girls heart! Thank you very much and have a nice day!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

It's weird how change happens every 4ish years...

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Some days I just need sleep and solidarity. So,I don't pick up my phone.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Today I got my wisdom teeth pulled. Wasn't planned,but apparently I was at risk for an infection. Dr.Anthony Nguyen is BOMB. Highly Recommend him!!!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

The David to my Jonathan...

Today was one of those days that reminded me WHY I am friends with Allison. Before I go into bullet point reasons WHY I love Allison, let me tell you about our day. We started out with a trip to 5 points where Al was trying to find shoes for her brothers wedding, in which she's a bridesmaid. Nine West failed, but she tried on some SUPER cute shoes. We decided to go check out the Loehmans and passed by a pet shop where outside there was a parrot, who cried like a toddler or laughed..FREAKY. We get to Loehmans and it's ghetto and they don't have anything. SO off we go to Fashion Island where we would spend the next couple of hours. Got Dustin iced tea, took it to him at work (Toni & Guy) and then went and had iced water with Matt at PF Changs. Yep. "Ha ha we went to PF Changs to hydrate"-Allison. Then we went to various shoe stores looking and looking and they all failed. Finally we went to Nordstroms and found the shoes. Left, met Dustin in the parking lot, talked for 20ish minutes, and I got a hand shake out of it. Left, got allison food, went to a grassy field and talked and just rested and then we left. Headed to Metro to return some ugly shoes and then went to an open house at the school my sister works at. We left and did a little dress shopping (para me) at Target...Thank You Sara Balos!! Then we went back to my house and said our goodbyes. OKAY. NOW what you've all been waiting for...The top 5 reasons WHY I love Allison Elyse Escalante..

(1) She knows me better than ANY other human. I never have to explain myself..She just gets me. She's the only person (other than family) who calls me at 1:30 in the morning, and I don't worry that somethings wrong. I just know that she has something REALLY exciting to tell me...or not....maybe she's just really sigh-y....
(2)She loves Jesus and is ALWAYS encouraging me to stay in the Word and to grow.

(3)One of my very favorite things in life is to laugh, and there is not 5 minutes where we aren't laughing. We don't need words either. We can sit someplace for HOURS and just laugh. That's VERY important to me.
(4)If there is something I want in life, Allison assures me that it's possible for me to achieve it, even if we KNOW it's not possible. If I said I want to be the president of the US, Allison would reccomend that we go to Room & Board to pick out decorations for the oval office.
(5) When we refer to ourselves as Jonathan and David, it's truly because we are kindred hearts. The Lord gave me Allison 20+ years ago, and I KNOW that she will ALWAYS be there for me. I'm her stage hand and she's my turtle. I love her more than she knows, or maybe she does...

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Today at work. . .

It was just after 2pm, and I was off already. I had just clocked out and was sitting in the loss prevention office talking to my friend Jenn. The fire alarm goes off. Chaos happens. Managers running in and out talking about the possible evacuation about to incur. 911 gets called. I ask the loss prevention manager if, even though I already clocked out, does she want me to go down and help get the kids out of my department. YES. She says. So RUN I do. Down to smaland. We get the kids lined up, grabbing a rope, 99cent store flip flops on their feet,and out to the 5 flag poles, where we wait for their parents. APPARENTLY one of the air conditioning unit's had a part that had started sparking and started sending smoke through a vent in our computer room. SO the firemen came, and the police came, and the helicopters came, and within 35 minutes the store was reopened......It was an adventure needless to say...those crazy swedes....

Sunday, May 16, 2010

12+12= a new tattoo

From the end to the beginning...

Thank you to the David to my Jonathan for taking these pictures and getting me listography! I love you and appreciate you! Also thank you to Ky,Jess,Brittaney,Bethany,Parentals,and Erik for supporting me ;)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

It's been a really rough week....

Last night though, I spent the evening talking about Jesus with some highschoolers, and then the night laughing with friends. Then today I had my James class. Guest speaker Robin was a blessing, sharing what God's doing through James in my life was a blessing, and lunch with God fearing women was a blessing. Tomorrow is a day with Allison. I'm excited about our day.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Chloe and Giovan POLANCO.

Me and G's mom Grace.
(One of my favorite people EVER.)
Me and the Polanco's.

The Family Dance...Prrrobably the cutest thing ever.

Mother/Son dance...

The first dance....
More soon...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

What do you guys think???

This is my possible next tattoo, on my forearm....for my birthday....with maybe a verse reference...What do you guys think?? I think it's SO pretty!!!

Monday, March 8, 2010


I love it when your praying for peace, and the Lord uses those we love to lift up, and encourage. I got a series of text messages from my dear friend Alicia Dishno this morning, and they were completely needed. I'm so grateful!!

"Exodus 40:36-38 Whenever the cloud was taken up from above the tabernacle, the children of Israel would go onward in all their journey's, but if the cloud was not taken up, they did not journey till the day that it was taken up. For the cloud of the Lord was above the tabernacle, by day and fire was over it at night, in the sight of all the house of Israel throughout all their journeys. Everything is in the Lord's timing! When He wants us to move, He tells us. Otherwise we know He just wants us to rest in Him! But we know that night or day, whether we're moving or standing still, He is with us in all our journeys!"

Such a blessing to wake up to! The reminder that He holds us in His hands, and we aren't able to escape that-even when our flesh doesn't understand, and we try to handle things on our own....He cares,loves,and patiently waits for us. That's HUGE

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

The heart of a girl by Peter Bradley Adams

(He's my new Favorite....)

The waiting is over

There's a break in the weather
And I will build my house again

My faith was broken

But it wasn't for nothing
And I will learn to walk again
Time won't wait
Plans they come
Scattered by the wind
Here I am
And the day will come when I find my rest again
You showed me the heart of a girl
And I wrapped you in ribbons and curls
We lived in a handsome world
We had it all
Don't ask where I'm going
There's no way of knowing
Anyway there's more to see
You made me a promise
And you've known me the longest
And I'll finally get some sleep
Time won't wait
Plans they go
Scattered by the wind
Here I am
Day will come
And I find my breath again
You showed me the heart of a girl
And I wrapped you in ribbons in curls
We lived in a handsome world
We had it all...
We had it all
You showed me the heart of a girl
And I wrapped you in ribbons and curls
We lived in a handsome world
We had it all...

Monday, February 22, 2010

Carpinteria for the night and day

Waiting for the girls to wake up from their nap.
"I don't sleep, I always play."-Aeh
My beautiful Lindsay, and beautiful Sara

Lindsay has the cutest smile EVER!

Here I am, hoping that Nina isn't serious. . .

Reality Carp in the A.M...Always a delight.

Me,Char,Aeh, and Linds

Nina getting her hair did.

Aeh as Spot the dog, AND Princess the horse.
(She was chloe, but when she became a mother, her name changed.)

My back, hugging my lindsay goodnight.

The CUTEST picture of Char ever.

What Charles Haddon had to say. . .

Feb 19th-Blessings through prayer
'Once again I will yield to the plea of the house of Israel and do this for them.'-Ezekiel 36:37

"Prayer is the forerunner of mercy. Search through sacred history, and you will find that hardly ever did a great mercy come to this world, without prayer paving it's way. God has given many blessings without being asked, but still, great prayer has always preceded great mercy. As you think about the great joys of your life, you have seen them as answers to prayer. Prayer is always the preface to blessing. So we see the value of prayer. If we had the blessings without asking for them, we would take them for granted. But prayer makes our mercies more precious than diamonds. The things we ask for are precious, but we do not realize how precious until we have earnestly asked God for them."

Feb 20th-Comfort from God
'God,who comforts the downcast.'-2 Corinthians 7:6

"Who can comfort us like God? One word from God is like a piece of gold, and the Christian is like the goldsmith, who hammers out the promise for weeks on end. So then, Christian, you don't need to sit down in despair. Go to the Comforter. Ask Him to give you consolation. You are a poot, dry well. So Christian, when you are dry, go to God. Ask Him to dowse your soul with joy. Then your joy will be full. Don't go eartly friends. But go first and foremost to the God who comforts the downcast, and you will soon find yourself saying, "When anxiety was great within me, Your consolation brought joy to my soul."(Ps. 94:19)

Feb 21st-God's Promises
'God has said.'-Hebrews 13:5

"When we hide ourselves within the fortress of this statement, all the distresses of life, all it's traps and trials seem light and easy to bear. This simple truth gives us delight in times of quiet meditation, and it gives us strength for our daily battles. There may be a promise in God's Word that would fit your situation exactly, but you may not know it, so you miss out on it's comfort. You are like a prisoner in a dungeon, with a ring of keys. One of the keys would unlock the dorr and free you. But if you don't look for it, you will remain a prisoner, though your liberty is so close at hand. "He has said" is the source of all wisdo. Let it dwell in you richly.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

From Jesus

When the rain comes, it seems that everyone has gone away. When the night falls you wonder if you shouldn't find someplace, to run and hide, escape the pain, but hiding's such a lonely thing to do. I can't stop the rain, from falling down on you again, I can't stop the rain, but I will hold you 'til it goes away. When the rain comes, you blame it on the things that you have done. When the storm fades, you know that rain must fall on everyone, So rest awhile, it'll be alright, cause no one loves you like I do. When the rain comes, I will hold you.

-Third Day

Sunday, January 24, 2010

He IS the end.

not the means to the end...

He's it.
He's everything.
He is Love, He is mercy,grace,peace,hope and joy.
He's so much more.

Why don't I treat Him that way?
Why am I such a fool.

I am undeserving.
I am unworthy.

Yet, I act like HE owes ME something.
I act like He isn't doing His job, just because I haven't gotten certain things in my life yet.
Like He needs to follow MY time schedule...YEAH right!!!!!!

He's all deserving, and completely worthy. I want Him to have complete reign! I want Him and ONLY Him!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I wasn't....

excited about Vaentines Day, but now I am...Hopefully everything turns out the way we want it to. Praying that the Lord does a lot of healing,restoring,redeeming!! I trust that He will!