Wednesday, July 28, 2010
It was one of those days, that started out awful. I got sun poisoning from laying out for too long on Sunday, and spent all Monday night/Tuesday Morning "getting sick". It's one of the worst feelings ever. Not to mention, your body is SO exhausted, that you fall asleep, but then wake up every hour...(as I did...3/4/5/6/7...) Then finally, I slept until 10, but then had to work the rest of the day. Came home, had a run in with a grumpy brother, and then got to (I say got to,because regardless of the circumstances, I'm blessed by my friends) be a shoulder for one of my friends.I found myself praying, more than once today that the Lord, would come quickly! "These days are getting far too long, and too tiring for my liking! I know I asked that You not come back until I was married/kids/etc. But at this point I just want to be with You!" It turned into not so bad, as my friends make me smile, and I am reminded of the blessing that life is. How even just to breathe....Is a blessing....
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
I have been punched in the heart (figuratively speaking) quite a few times in my life, due to my lacking the ability to guard my heart. Due to me being SUPER naive, and SUPER prone to emotionally attaching myself to everything. So, I decided in April, to have a fast from the opposite sex. For a couple of reasons:(1) To be able to spend time alone with my Jesus, and draw close to Him, so that He would once again draw close to me, and I would re-focus on Him being my number 1, and Him being THEE only important thing to me.
(2)That I would grow up and end that mind set.So, the date was set, that my "Man fast" would end at the end of August, and I would be free to let my guard down. WELL GUESS WHAT?!!? I changed my mind! Why SHOULD my man fast end? Why SHOULD I open myself back up for being in pain again? I'm not going to. My man fast is extended until further notice. I am having an AMAZING time being in my Jesus' presence constantly. Reading about all things theological, praying for anything and everything, and just focusing on keeping Him where He belongs. First in my life, thoughts,days,conversation,and the only One who has any access to THIS girls heart! Thank you very much and have a nice day!